I asked a few guys to masturbate for me.
The aim was to capture the violence and intimacy
of a sexual practice called edging.
I went into their homes with a disposable camera.
I explained them the instructions: they would have
to jerk off, reach climax and stop before ejaculation.
Then they would call me and I would take pictures.
I asked them to hurt themselves.
Uncover themselves to me.
Uncover themselves to themselves.
I went into their homes and waited patiently,
smoking cigarettes and going through their stuff.
Sneezing for some cat hair.
Looking at their paintings on the wall.